July 2018 Archives

Anxiety and Depression - Page Three

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» Demi Lovato

Speaking of combining opioids with benzos .. remind me to talk about Demi Lovato.

Opium poppies

In particular, notice where Dr. Drew says (« at t=1:00):

"And if you add those (opiate pills) to a benzodiazepine, which celebrities get their hands on all the time, they frequently stop breathing. It's a common problem."

I had never heard this before. But the reason why I mention it here is because it resonates with my own experience of combining opiates with benzos (Ativan is a benzo) .. where it felt like I wouldnt breathe unless I consciously thought about breathing.

Opium poppies

But I admit that I am something of a lightweight when it comes to drugs. They seem to have a greater effect on me than they do on most other people.

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Anxiety and Depression - Page Two

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» My First Time on Antidepressants

He prescribed for me some Zoloft (Sertraline).

Ball-n-stick model of Zoloft (Sertraline)

Which is a » Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitor (SSRI) .. which is used to treat things such as » depression, obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD), posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD), premenstrual dysphoric disorder (PMDD), social anxiety disorder, and panic disorder.

» Better Living Through Chemistry

I have never taken antidepressants before. I am one of the few people I know who havent tried them. (I remember that Maria had a hard time getting off of them.)

I could tell that this guy knew what he was talking about .. so I trusted him.

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Anxiety and Depression - Page One

» Longest Blood Moon of the Century

Today is the longest blood moon of the entire twenty-first century.

Century's longest blood moon eclipse 27 July 2018

Although we won't be able to see it here on our side of the planet.

Such eclipses are all about precise alignments. Today the earth is aligning with both the sun and the moon in a remarkably precise manner.

I wonder what such celestial alignments might mean.

» Anxiety Inducing Event

At the beginning of this month, I received information that most people would find both depressing and anxiety inducing.

On an intellectual level, I dismissed this thing as merely annoying .. because it was not life-threatening, and I had already dealt with a life-threatening situation.

Anything that is not life-threatening seems like small potatoes by comparison, and I have already lived through much worse.

Nevertheless, right about the same time, I began having symptoms where, for brief periods, I could not seem to catch my breath .. even when I wasnt doing anything physical.

I have never experienced anything like this before.

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I Am So Glad that We Will Always be in Love Forever

Right now the time is 11:46 PM on 16 July 2018 .. and this page is live. I was cutting it a little close there.

When I list the time as 7:16 PM, this is not the real time that I posted this page. This is simply a numeric reflection of the date. (July is the seventh month.)

All of my entries correspond to this same pattern. This is just a quirky thing that I do. The date is really the thing that matters .. the important thing.

If the time matters in an entry, then I will specifically note it. Sometimes it does matter, but not normally.

» Must be Today

Sometimes (not always) I feel as though I need to start a certain page on/by a certain day. Today is one such day.

I admit that this is something of a quirky thing with me. I dont know anybody else who has a quirky thing like this. (I normally try to avoid quirky things.)

The feeling behind such things is that you will surely die .. if you dont do this thing. Maybe not die, some bad shit for sure.

11:59 PM is okay .. but midnight, which begins the new day, is not. So I dont want to cut it too close.

I can fill in the page later, but the actual HTML structure needs to be up-n-live on/by a certain day.

Now, after midnight .. then I am free to do whatever I like. More or less .. depending.

I can feel a sense of timing at play. Timing is important .. along with the ability to execute a complex skill-set in a timely fashion.

» Good to be Loved

As coincidence would have it ... I am listening right now to » Could You be Loved .. on a mix playlist .. where one of the lines that the Rastafarian sings is »"It's good to be loved."

And I think, "True that."

I am not sure what I will be writing in this entry .. but I know that I will have lots of fun doing it.

Girly, do you work your thing like this on everybody? Or, is it just me?

I am not sure how you are doing it .. but there is just something irresistible about you. And it's not just one thing, either.

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