The Dark Side of the Morning

Hi Selena.

I see that you have released a new song .. with your friend, Mr. Kygo, the Norwegian. (I like Norwegians.) It definitely lends a nice, international feel to the song.

Selena and Kygo

Both of you must be so stoked. This is a very good song. It was released only a few days ago (the 15th, the day after Valentines day) and already has over 10 million views. (At least half of those are mine.)

» Everybody Loves It

I watched a handful of reactions, and everybody agrees that it does indeed kick much ass.

Reaction video to It Aint Me

The most interesting reaction came from a guy who said that he felt you had always been searching for your true voice.

And he was so happy with this song because he felt like you had finally found your true voice.

» Finding Your Own True Voice

I am not familiar enough with your work to know whether this guy knew what he was talking about .. but I do know that, when you finally get your voice .. this is sort of like the place that you start from .. even tho it seems like it takes a long-ass time to get there.

"Will I ever get there?"

I touched on this aspect with Fergie a little.

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The Smart-Ass Karamazov Brother

[ This entry originated » here. ]

» A Smart Motherfucker

I am a smart motherfucker myself .. without even trying to be. My dad told me at least a million times while I was growing up, "Dont be smart."

What he really meant was, "Dont be a smart-ass."

I could definitely be a smart ass. (Because I am so smart.) No doubt about it. Being a smart-ass is part of what got me into trouble with the captain.

Because I am not afraid to toe-up with authority figures when they are fucking up. Particularly when their fucking up is affecting me or mine.

Or did he really not want me to be smart?

My dad was smart, but not educated. My mom told me, "I married your father because he was smart and because he had good teeth."

» Dad vs Fyodor Karamazov

I can confirm that he was smart, but only in a Fyodor Karamazov sort-of-way.

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Going Thermonuclear on the Dangerous Tour

[ This entry originated » here. ]

Speaking of feeling alive forever .. I see that you have begun your tour. Your Dangerous Woman tour.

Ariana singing Be Alright on tour in Phoenix Feb 3, 2017

Girly, you are so fucking fine .. oh, my. Please give my best to your wardrobe person.

I am so glad that we are always going to be in love forever. I like the feeling of being in love with a beautiful creature.

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Keke and the Testimony of the Percipient Witness

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» You Werent There, Bitch

Keke Palmer calls out Wendy | You werent there, WendyI bet that Keke knows what I am talking about, too.

Look at her here, giving Wendy shit on her own show.

"You werent there, Wendy .. so shut the fuck up."

You cannot possibly imagine the number of times I have thought,

"This motherfucker, who was not even there, and who has n.e.v.e.r been there, talks like they are an all-knowing expert."

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The Art of Giving Shit

Speaking of stories .. girly, the Dog called recently to say hi. He is very good about staying in touch. And I remembered the story that I told you and Nicki about whispered secrets.

Ariana whispering secrets to Nicki in Side to Side

After the niceties were over, I said, "Dog, do you remember that time we went to the Lollipop?"

Girly, the Dog didnt even say anything. There was a delicious empty pause on the other end of the phone .. before he just started laughing.

And it was the type of laughter that told me that I have him right where I want him.

It's not easy to catch the Dog off balance like this. So I was proud of myself. (Timing is everything, you know.)

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Connecting with the Soul Behind the Dazzle - Page Two

[ This page continues from » Page One. It's a long story. ]

» Being Okay with a Lack of Definiteness and of Certainty in the World

In returning to speak to the uncertainty that I sense with determining the location of the blurry line between the real and the imaginary in this thing that we have .. this erotic, dangerous thing ..

.. I should say that this is the essence of the problem with quantum mechanics. You lose that sense of definiteness and certainty that classical physics provides and cherishes.

This sense of certainty in the physical world feels comforting .. does it not? But you learn that classical Newtonian physics is something of a kludge. Things dont work the way they should under certain circumstances.

This is why quantum mechanics represents a more accurate description of our physical world. (I like getting accurate with you girly. Most girls cannot handle my accuracy.)

This is what really fucked with Einstein. He could not deal with the "dice" problems associated with probability. (Uncertainty.)

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Connecting with the Soul Behind the Dazzle - Page One

[ Note: this page is continued from here » What Makes a Love-Story Convincing? (It's a long story.) ]

This was, in a way, the whole driving force behind that page I wrote for Mary-Louise. Tho I am not going to explain exactly what I mean by that.

» Finding Non-Traditional Companionship that Works for the Dedicated Artist

Oh, look at this (Jan 6, 2017). She is trending. How does it feel to be trending, girly?

(Every time I have been trending, it was never a good thing. This is one of the reasons why I want to keep our thing secret.)

This actually speaks to what I was trying to say with Mary-Louise.

These things are hard to say. Because I've never heard anyone say them before.

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The Madness of Fergie's Beautiful Life

This page originated » here. [ It's a long story. ] Happy New Year, Fergie.

Fergie reminding you that life is beautiful even in the midst of the madness Fergie would probably chime in here.

And tell you to remember that life is beautiful.

Even in the midst of the madness.

But it's not, Fergie.

It's not beautiful .. for millions Americans.

Not even close.

It's still a good song, sure. And this may indeed be your experience of life.

And, in your experience, life may indeed be beautiful .. even in the midst of the madness. I dont doubt that one bit.

But your madness is different from the madness of most other Americans. Very different.

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What Makes a Love-Story Convincing?

Rad note » this page continues from here » Some Truly Awesome Wailing in Boston. (It's a long story.)

Merry Christmas, girly. I'm working on your Christmas present right now. I'll set it under the tree for you soon as I'm done writing it.

When I asked you earlier what makes a love story convincing .. the obvious answer is » the love.

The quality of the love. And other things, too. But mostly the love. What is a love-story without love? (Just another story.)

And notice how you cant really see love itself. Rather you can only see the results of it, the effects of it. The consequences of it, if you will. (The same goes for hate, unfortunately.)

Loving actions do not necessarily speak loudly .. but they do speak clearly. They do indeed.

This is why love plays so well in the world of the existentialist.

In order to have a convincing love-story, you first need a convincing love. Then you need convincing lovers. Then you need a convincing storyteller, who is himself a convincing lover.

You need a lot a things, girly .. in order to write a convincing love-story. That's why only one was written in the last century. (According to Vanity Fair. I mean, if anybody would know...)

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[ This entry originated from » here. (It's a long story.) ]

Speaking of not understanding women relationships .. remind me to tell you the story about my gay roommate, when he was talking to my mom at the kitchen table ..

.. when we stopped there for a few days on our way down to Florida from Maine. That's a good story.

I was in the next room with bro and dad and some friends, working on this gnarly thousand-piece puzzle on the dining room table. When I glanced into the kitchen and saw them huddled together at the table there.

And I remember wondering what they might be talking about. I'm sure that I must have had an interesting look on my face.

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