I should probably note that my email accounts have been hacked .. for some time now.

I have detailed the circumstances behind this hack on my » Contacts page.

So if you have received an email from me in the last several months, then it is probably bogus.

From some hacker pretending to be me.

I take the approach that anytime I am online the whole world is watching everything I do.

I dont know why hackers are so interested in my site .. seeing that there are so many more lucrative targets out there. (I dont $ell anything.)

If you happen to know this hacker, then tell Fucknuts that it is a stupid idea to hack people who have no money (since last July).

They are just wasting their time trying to extract money from me. (I have not had a thousand dollars in a long time.)

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This entry continues from here » Sitting on the Moral Cusp of a New Political Epoch for Socioeconomic Transformation - Page One (15 Feb 2019).

» Public Support Means Nothing to Congress Because They are All About the Money

JLaw knows the type of spineless politicians that I am talking about .. the ones who care only about the money.

Public support for a bill means nothing because money means everything to Congress (RepresentUs with JLaw, 27 Feb 2019)

Check out this 12-min video titled » Unbreaking America: A NEW Short Film about Solving the Corruption Crisis (27 Feb 2019).

Public support for a bill's passage means nothing .. because money means everything to Congress.

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This entry originated from this page » Playing Psycho-Erotic Games with Kick-Ass Boss-Chicks Who Desire to Dominate (3 Sept 2018)

» AOC Plays a Game Like a Powerful, Kick-Ass Boss-Chick

Speaking of kick-ass boss-chicks who enjoy playing games that are particularly challenging .. check out AOC playing a game here.

AOC's lightning-round game on money in politics goes viral during House committee hearing on broken campaign finance laws (6 Feb 2019)

She is going straight for the juggler. She is putting her foot on the throat of the beast .. that is addicted to money.

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I hesitate to mention this, because it sounds crazy at times .. even to me. But sometimes I will see things that make me feel like super-hotties are talking directly to me.

I have been thinking about this lately .. because it feels like Mia is talking directly to me.

A Deeper Letting Go with Mistress Mia (March, 2018)

(That's a good trick, Mia.)

» That's What Crazy People Think

Sometimes the voice in my head will say, "Dude, you know that's what crazy people think, right? .. that super-hottie singers and super-sexy dancers and other such desirable creatures are directing their art and their craft directly at them. Oh look .. here come the nice men with a pretty, white jacket for you. The pretty, white, I-Love-Me jacket .. just for you. Such a handsome, stylish jacket. And so nice-n-warm, too. I bet it will fit you perfectly. Why dont you go ahead and try it on .. and see how it fits. These masculine buckles and thick straps are going to make you look so handsome .. that those super-hotties who have been talking to you will not able to resist you. I wish that somebody would bring me one of these nice jackets to wear someday."

Taylor's right eye in ...Ready For It

I am currently taking a number of brain-chemistry-altering psycho drugs .. so I realize that there may be some slippage here-n-there from time-to-time.

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I have Never Been Here Before

When I first heard that you were coming out next with a video for breathin' (released Wed, 7 Nov 2018) I wondered what kind of concept you would come up with.

"What's she gonna bring?" I wondered. "What can she bring with a song like this?" [ The scope seemed rather narrow .. the possibilities limited. Silly me. ]

Some days had passed and I forgot all about the video .. until I saw the thumbnail for it .. right there in front of me.

» The Most Excited Sense of Anticipation I have Ever Felt

This is definitely the most excited I have felt. By far .. and I am always excited to see your new stuff. But this was special.

The sense of anticipation with this particular video .. and the surrounding curiosity and the hint of a promise of worlds that I didnt even know existed .. was too much for me.

As if on its own, my hand shot out and hovered directly over the trackpad .. less than an inch away.

I was starting to click when I better saw the details of the image of you on the thumbnail.

Ariana breathin video thumbnail (7 Nov 2018)

That's when I froze. (I am cautious with girls like you.)

Even without clicking the link, the voice in my head said, "Oh, I see where she is going with this."

I see how you are, girly. I see how you work. You are clever. This I will freely admit.

You never cease to impress me and to challenge me. You sometimes do things to me that I cannot even put into words. (But that doesnt stop me from trying.)

So I didnt click on it. My sense of restraint has been impressing girls for years.

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Starving Writer SOS - Page Five

This entry continues from here » Page Four (1 Nov 2018).

» Send a Moving Truck with a Couple of Strong Dudes

Maybe you could send a moving truck here .. a few days before New Years .. along with a couple of muscular dudes to load my shit. I have very little stuff.

Everything I have could easily fit into the smallest U-haul truck. And then they could take me to my new place.

I have no bed. No furniture. Just clothes and books and a laptop. A couple of bikes. It makes moving easy. Unencumbered.

Heck, I probably really only need one strong dude.

My mom used to say, "The things you own end up owning you."

You can spend a good chunk of your life just tending to all your stuff .. and not writing or creating, or tending to the things that are really important in life.

I got rid of most of my crap when I moved here from Orange county. (Here in northern San Diego county. It takes an hour to get to the OC. Probably 75 mins all the way to Laguna.)

So right about now is when I can use that bed .. the one with my name on it. (You and Nicki must have ESP.)

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Starving Writer SOS - Page Four

This entry continues from here » Page Three (1 Nov 2018).

» Writing and Intimacy both Represent Formidable Challenges

One of the reasons why, Ariana, I am drawn to, and pursue, intimacy .. is for the same reason that I am drawn to and pursue writing.

Both can be tricky and challenging to negotiate .. both come with incubation periods that deter most explorers .. and both come with pay-offs that you can get no other way. (If you really must know.)

I wonder what Kierkegaard thinks about that.

Intimacy is probably the domain in which you learn the most about yourself. Perhaps this is because this is where you speak most openly and honestly and frankly.

» Nothing More Difficult than Escaping Self-Deception

On the subject of taking on challenging endeavors .. Wittgenstein says that nothing is more difficult than escaping self-delusion.

I would have to agree with him there. It might not even be humanly possible .. but I can guarantee you that the journey is not boring. Talk about things that you did not even know existed.

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Starving Writer SOS - Page Three

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» Sponsoring a Starving Writer

Ewan McGregor as Christain the writer in Moulin Rouge!Anyway .. so I was thinking, girly.

Since we are already in love,

and because we make such a good team,

and because we now have a history,

a rich history,

and because we will always be in love forever ..

.. I think you should consider sponsoring a starving writer.

And in return, I will continue to write and push the envelope,

and continue what I have already been doing for years ..

so we can see where this story takes us.

I should probably give you some time to think about it.

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Starving Writer SOS - Page Two

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» When Life Starts to Crumble Around You

You learn a lot about people, girly, when their life starts to crumble around them.

Sandcastle at the beach with the tide coming in.

It happens to everybody, you know .. at some time or other.

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Starving Writer SOS - Page One

» The Homeless Starving Writer

Girly, I just learned today that, due to circumstances beyond my control, I will be more-or-less homeless come January 1st. (The day of new beginnings.)

SOS written in the snow from the film Arctic (1 Feb 2019)

Though, I must say that it feels right. It feels like change is in the air. It feels natural and organic. And timing is important.

(Eddie Glenn knows what I am talking about. Poor Eddie Glenn.)

I have been homeless before .. but that was back when I had a car, and a drivers license and some money. And some credit cards that werent max'ed out yet. And I still had good physical stamina. And a voice box that did not have radiation scarring.

[ All my doctors say that long-term stress is not good .. because it weakens the immune system. ]

» Responding to Anxiety-Inducing Events

Perhaps I am not articulating this accurately .. but you feel me when I say that anxiety can sometimes be a good thing. It can provide you with the motivation that you did not have before.

And it can even be the thing that helps kick you over into your true voice.

» Maybe I am Taking this Authentic Thing Too Far

Perhaps I am taking this authentic thing too seriously. Perhaps I should compromise my sense of artistic values.

Dont think I havent thought about it. More than once. Shakespeare knows what I am talking about.

'To thy own self be true ..' says Polonius in Hamlet Acts 1 Scene 3.

In the end, the thing that a writer is really after (.. okay, besides the super-hottie singers who sing from their hearts) the thing the writer really desires is ..

.. is simply the ability to speak to whatever-thing might need speaking to.

"Yes, I can speak to this thing here because I have been there. I have done that myself. Remind me to tell you that story sometime. That's a good story."

You gain insights and understanding while actually in a thing .. that you can get no other way.

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