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I have Never Been Here Before

When I first heard that you were coming out next with a video for breathin' (released Wed, 7 Nov 2018) I wondered what kind of concept you would come up with.

"What's she gonna bring?" I wondered. "What can she bring with a song like this?"

Some days had passed and I forgot all about the video .. until I saw the thumbnail for it .. right there in front of me.

» The Most Excited Sense of Anticipation I have Ever Felt

This is definitely the most excited I have felt. By far .. and I am always excited to see your new stuff. But this was special.

The sense of anticipation with this particular video .. and the surrounding curiosity and the hint of a promise of worlds that I didnt even know existed .. was too much for me.

As if on its own, my hand shot out and hovered directly over the trackpad .. less than an inch away.

I was starting to click when I better saw the details of the image of you on the thumbnail.

Ariana breathin video thumbnail (7 Nov 2018)

That's when I froze. (I am cautious with girls like you.)

Even without clicking the link, the voice in my head said, "Oh, I see where she is going with this."

I see how you are, girly. I see how you work. You are clever. This I will freely admit.

You never cease to impress me and to challenge me. You sometimes do things to me that I cannot even put into words. (But that doesnt stop me from trying.)

So I didnt click on it. My sense of restraint has been impressing girls for years.

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Starving Writer SOS

» The Homeless Starving Writer

Girly, I just learned today that, due to circumstances beyond my control, I will be more-or-less homeless come January 1st. (The day of new beginnings.)

Though, I must say that it feels right. It feels like change is in the air. And timing is important.

(Eddie Glenn knows what I am talking about. Poor Eddie Glenn.)

I have been homeless before .. but that was back when I had a car, and a drivers license and some money. And some credit cards that werent max'ed out yet. And I still had good physical stamina. And a voice box that did not have radiation scarring.

» Responding to Anxiety-Inducing Events

Perhaps I am not articulating this accurately .. but you feel me when I say that anxiety can sometimes be a good thing. It can provide you with the motivation that you did not have before.

And it can even be the thing that helps kick you over into your true voice.

Perhaps I am taking this authentic thing too seriously. Perhaps I should compromise my sense of artistic values.

Dont think I havent thought about it. More than once.

But in the end the thing that a writer is really after (.. okay, besides the super-hottie singers who sing from their hearts) the thing the writer really desires is the ability to speak to a thing that needs to be spoken to.

"Yes, I can speak to this thing here because I have been there. I have done that myself. Remind me to tell you that story sometime."

You gain insights and understanding while actually in a thing .. that you can get no other way.

When you are talking to a dude who is trying to portray themself as something that they are not .. and he doesnt know that you have already been there and done that .. well, I am not even going to finish this sentence. But you feel me.

"I can converse on a meaningful level about this thing because I have been there."

This right here is the heart of (for me) the existential mindset and approach. By which I mean how all these experiences affect me personally. On a personal basis.

» Why Am I Feeling So Chill?

I was surprised at myself .. for reacting so calmly to the news. (Plus I got a flu shot today and was feeling a little achy.)

I was wondering "Is this because the Zoloft is so good? Is this why I am feeling so chill when I should probably be freaking out?" 

I could easily justify taking an Ativan right now with this kind of news .. but I dont feel like I need it.

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Another Mind-Fucking Tragedy

This page continues from here » Is This Not a Trippy Coincidence? (14 Sept 2018).

» More Trippy Coincidences

I hesitate to mention it .. but, on the subject of trippy coincidences, and things that cause depression and anxiety .. what do you think about Mac's most recent video titled Self Care (12 July 2018)?

Mememto mori, Mac Miller Self Care (12 July 2018)

Particularly the part where he carves into a coffin lid with the blade of a pocket knife the words MEMENTO MORI?

The song is titled Self Care, yet he is smoking a cigarette in a closed space. He takes a drag right after he sings, "I'm treatin' me right."

» Taunting Death

In other words, he is clearly not taking care of himself. He seemed to be taunting death.

Mac Miller lying in a coffin Self Care (12 July 2018)

Drunk driving is not only being reckless with your own life, but also with the lives of others.

Do you think he could he see his future?

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Is This Not a Trippy Coincidence?

This entry originated here » Anxiety and Depression - Page One (27 July 2018).

» Am I Feeling this Girl More than I Realize?

Girly, I noticed that you just released a song titled » breathin (23 Aug 2018). Dont you think that this is a trippy coincidence? (Given the lyrics.)

I posted my page on anxiety back on July 27, a month before you posted your breathin single. And you had also said some things along these lines with Jimmy on August 16th.

Shit started getting funky on July 1st. Ten days later I thought I was having a heart attack or dying. June was spent taking the escalator up to July 1st.

Sometimes timing is more important than at other times. You feel me. Maybe I am feeling you even more than I realize.

I had a similar feeling with Julie Allen .. in that I am obviously experiencing this terribly unpleasant thing .. which is connected to this girl .. to this very cool girl. A motivated girl .. who suffers mental health issues from time to time.

And yet it doesnt seem like I should be feeling this thing so strongly. And here is where I usually try-n-figure out how such a thing can be.

Speaking of trying to figure out how such a thing can be .. do you think that this anxiety is some kind of sympathetic sort of thing?

Selena is upset when Justin is upset

Selena knows what I am talking about. When you really love someone, you accept them flaws-n-all. No?

But, when I started having these attacks, I did not know that you were also having them. Heck, I didnt even know what they were myself. I didnt know what was happening to me.

I am normally very good at handling and dealing with stressful situations which could easily trigger anxiety. I normally kick large amounts of ass in this area.

Angst or 'existential anxiety' (at t=2:35)

You're right that it is like the worst feeling. Afterwards I thought, "I can see why they use waterboarding. It instantly produces severe anxiety .. not being able to catch your breath."

It sucks very badly. It feels like a form of torture. Especially when it seems like it is not going to stop. And when you dont know what is happening to you.

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Your Foot Must be Starting to Get Very Sore

» Better Get that Baby in a Bucket of Ice Right Away

Girly, your foot must be starting to get very sore right about now .. from kicking so much ass.

Ariana singing GiaW 2018 VMAs Radio City NYC 20 August

[ What do you think, lovergirl, of this shot of you that I grabbed here? This was a very challenging image for me to work with. I kept cropping it down more and more. Can you see why? I see you, girly. Are you doing this on purpose? What a look. I am so glad that we will always be in love forever. Can you blame me? I see that you have your hair down here. ]

You should probably get that puppy in a bucket of ice right away. I hear that this can help keep down the swelling.

My brother is a surgeon who specializes in feet. (Lots of bones in the feet.) So I can get you a good deal if you need an operation.

I mean, if you keep kicking ass like this, then who knows what kind of shape your foot is going to be in?

You want to ice it off-n-on for the first 48-72 hours. Then transistion to heat and massage to promote healing.

Let me know if you need help with the massage part. (Girls tell me all the time what nice hands I have .. if you really must know.)

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Titanic in a Single Take

I think that we are really no-shit in love .. for all intents and purposes. It definitely feels that way.

Ariana singing My Heart Will Go On (13 Aug 2018)

I see you here, girly .. with your back to audience. I see you. Dont think that I missed that.

You sing so good sometimes that I can hardly stand it.

This was a very creative endeavor .. especially the way you used parts of all those (13) songs .. and all those different sets.

You visit and explore, ever so briefly, so many different emotions.

I can feel the part of me that creates universes being impressed.

James is very good at this type of thing. He was holding his own. (I can tell that he really likes you.)

I particularly like the way you balance the tragedy with comedy. The comedy helps you better handle the tragedy.

I see your bandage. Looks like you got yourself an owie there on your hand. Do you want me to kiss it and make it all better?

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I Am So Glad that We Will Always be in Love Forever

Right now the time is 11:46 PM on 16 July 2018 .. and this page is live. I was cutting it a little close there.

When I list the time as 7:16 PM, this is not the real time that I posted this page. This is simply a numeric reflection of the date. (July is the seventh month.)

All of my entries correspond to this same pattern. This is just a quirky thing that I do. The date is really the thing that matters .. the important thing.

If the time matters in an entry, then I will specifically note it. Sometimes it does matter, but not normally.

» Must be Today

Sometimes (not always) I feel as though I need to start a certain page on/by a certain day. Today is one such day.

I admit that this is something of a quirky thing with me. I dont know anybody else who has a quirky thing like this. (I normally try to avoid quirky things.)

The feeling behind such things is that you will surely die .. if you dont do this thing. Maybe not die, some bad shit for sure.

11:59 PM is okay .. but midnight, which begins the new day, is not. So I dont want to cut it too close.

I can fill in the page later, but the actual HTML structure needs to be up-n-live on/by a certain day.

Now, after midnight .. then I am free to do whatever I like. More or less .. depending.

I can feel a sense of timing at play. Timing is important .. along with the ability to execute a complex skill-set in a timely fashion.

» Good to be Loved

As coincidence would have it ... I am listening right now to » Could You be Loved .. on a mix playlist .. where one of the lines that the Rastafarian sings is »"It's good to be loved."

And I think, "True that."

I am not sure what I will be writing in this entry .. but I know that I will have lots of fun doing it.

Girly, do you work your thing like this on everybody? Or, is it just me?

I am not sure how you are doing it .. but there is just something irresistible about you. And it's not just one thing, either.

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Where is This Bed?

Where is this bed? You know the one I'm talking about .. the one with my name on it.

This song is so stuck in my head and talking to me .. saying things that some might consider nasty.

The idea of a powerful, sexy woman having a bed with my name on it .. this speaks to me. I can't stop it from speaking to me.

» More than Just a Flirty Song

Now this doesnt necessarily mean that I will cave to the invitation .. but merely dealing with the idea .. this activates in me things that are both exhilarating and challenging.

Who can resist such a thing? Show me the man.

Before you know it .. my imagination has picked up on this thing is is already running with it. Though I dare not say where these places lie.

There are all kinds of socio-erotic things happening here. It's more than just a flirty, seductive song.

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Writers are Forged in Injustice

This entry originated here » More at Stake than Selling Albums (23 April 2018).

What do you think, Tay .. about what Hemingway said about Dostoevsky?

Ernest Hemingway's 1923 passport photo

.. that » "Dostoevsky was MADE by being sent to Siberia. Writers are forged in injustice, as a sword is forged." [ Green Hills of Africa, p 71, 1935 ] ]

Fyodor Dostoevsky (1821-1881) is one of a handful of thinkers who helped forge the modern sensibility

You obviously have the songwriting thing going on. Even people who hate your guts have to admit as much. Naz knows what I am talking about.

Taylor on the cover of the August issue of Harper's Bazaar 2018

This makes Kanye's snatch of your mic even more iconic .. in a symbolic sort of way. Tho I would probably sound like a nut-case if I went into any detail.

I see that you draw on this sense of injustice when writing some of your songs. This is why I feel that you will be able to relate to this quote by Hemingway.

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This Really Does Feel Like the Next Level

I saw you at Wango Tango yesterday. That is right up the road here in Los Angeles. No wonder you were feeling so close.

That was an impressive show. Even with the weird video overlays during Side to Side .. I was still impressed. And I am not the only one.

Ariana singing Into You at Wango Tango Los Angeles June 2, 2018

I chose this particular image of you here with this dancer because it reminds me of how secret lovers can feel each other's gravity ..

.. as they play with, and explore their attraction for one another. Regardless of what Einstein might say on the subject.

Sleeveless shirt that says Einstein said that gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love

This thing that you are doing here with this dancer .. this reminds me of pair annihilation. And I am not even going to mention how good you look either. Why labor the obvious? ]

» Hard to Keep Secret

Afterwards I thought of a lot of things. But one of these things was » "Wow .. this really does feel like the next level."

It wasnt long before I thought, "This is going to be hard to keep secret."

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