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I have Never Been Here Before

When I first heard that you were coming out next with a video for breathin' (released Wed, 7 Nov 2018) I wondered what kind of concept you would come up with.

"What's she gonna bring?" I wondered. "What can she bring with a song like this?" [ The scope seemed rather narrow .. the possibilities limited. Silly me. ]

Some days had passed and I forgot all about the video .. until I saw the thumbnail for it .. right there in front of me.

» The Most Excited Sense of Anticipation I have Ever Felt

This is definitely the most excited I have felt. By far .. and I am always excited to see your new stuff. But this was special.

The sense of anticipation with this particular video .. and the surrounding curiosity and the hint of a promise of worlds that I didnt even know existed .. was too much for me.

As if on its own, my hand shot out and hovered directly over the trackpad .. less than an inch away.

I was starting to click when I better saw the details of the image of you on the thumbnail.

Ariana breathin video thumbnail (7 Nov 2018)

That's when I froze. (I am cautious with girls like you.)

Even without clicking the link, the voice in my head said, "Oh, I see where she is going with this."

I see how you are, girly. I see how you work. You are clever. This I will freely admit.

You never cease to impress me and to challenge me. You sometimes do things to me that I cannot even put into words. (But that doesnt stop me from trying.)

So I didnt click on it. My sense of restraint has been impressing girls for years.

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Starving Writer SOS - Page Five

This entry continues from here » Page Four (1 Nov 2018).

» Send a Moving Truck with a Couple of Strong Dudes

Maybe you could send a moving truck here .. a few days before New Years .. along with a couple of muscular dudes to load my shit. I have very little stuff.

Everything I have could easily fit into the smallest U-haul truck. And then they could take me to my new place.

I have no bed. No furniture. Just clothes and books and a laptop. A couple of bikes. It makes moving easy. Unencumbered.

Heck, I probably really only need one strong dude.

My mom used to say, "The things you own end up owning you."

You can spend a good chunk of your life just tending to all your stuff .. and not writing or creating, or tending to the things that are really important in life.

I got rid of most of my crap when I moved here from Orange county. (Here in northern San Diego county. It takes an hour to get to the OC. Probably 75 mins all the way to Laguna.)

So right about now is when I can use that bed .. the one with my name on it. (You and Nicki must have ESP.)

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Starving Writer SOS - Page Four

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» Writing and Intimacy both Represent Formidable Challenges

One of the reasons why, Ariana, I am drawn to, and pursue, intimacy .. is for the same reason why I am drawn to and pursue writing.

Both are tricky to negotiate, both come with incubation periods that deter most explorers, and both come with pay-offs that you can get no other way. (If you really must know.)

Intimacy is probably the domain in which you learn the most about yourself. Perhaps this is because this is where you speak most openly and honestly and frankly.

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Starving Writer SOS - Page Three

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» Sponsoring a Starving Writer

Anyway .. so I was thinking, girly .. since we are already in love and whatnot, and because we make such a good team, and because we now have a history .. a rich history .. and because we will always be in love forever ..

.. I think that you should sponsor a starving writer. And in return, I will continue to write and push the envelope and continue what I have already been doing for years .. so we can see where this story takes us.

I should probably give you some time to think about it.

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Starving Writer SOS - Page Two

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» When Life Starts to Crumble Around You

You learn a lot about people, girly, when their life starts to crumble around them.

Sandcastle at the beach with the tide coming in.

It happens to everybody, you know .. at some time or other. Emile and Sinead know what I am talking about.

Sinead discusses life after Clevver (20 Nov 2018)

And more than just once or twice, too .. over the course of a lifetime.

Right after I called bro, I called cousin Patti. She lives in Connecticut. She is so good at helping me deal with shit like this. I called her every other day during treatment. When my voice gave out, we traded emails.

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Starving Writer SOS - Page One

» The Homeless Starving Writer

Girly, I just learned today that, due to circumstances beyond my control, I will be more-or-less homeless come January 1st. (The day of new beginnings.)

Though, I must say that it feels right. It feels like change is in the air. It feels natural and organic. And timing is important.

(Eddie Glenn knows what I am talking about. Poor Eddie Glenn.)

I have been homeless before .. but that was back when I had a car, and a drivers license and some money. And some credit cards that werent max'ed out yet. And I still had good physical stamina. And a voice box that did not have radiation scarring.

» Responding to Anxiety-Inducing Events

Perhaps I am not articulating this accurately .. but you feel me when I say that anxiety can sometimes be a good thing. It can provide you with the motivation that you did not have before.

And it can even be the thing that helps kick you over into your true voice.

» Maybe I am Taking this Authentic Thing Too Far

Perhaps I am taking this authentic thing too seriously. Perhaps I should compromise my sense of artistic values.

Dont think I havent thought about it. More than once. Shakespeare knows what I am talking about.

'To thy own self be true ..' says Polonius in Hamlet Acts 1 Scene 3.

But in the end the thing that a writer is really after (.. okay, besides the super-hottie singers who sing from their hearts) the thing the writer really desires is ..

.. is simply the ability to speak to whatever-thing might need speaking to.

"Yes, I can speak to this thing here because I have been there. I have done that myself. Remind me to tell you that story sometime. That's a good story."

You gain insights and understanding while actually in a thing .. that you can get no other way.

When you are talking to a dude who is trying to portray themself as something that they are not .. and he doesnt know that you have already been there and done that .. well, I am not even going to finish this sentence. But you feel me.

"I can converse on a meaningful level about this thing because I have been there."

This right here is the heart of (for me) the existential mindset and approach. By which I mean how all these experiences affect me personally. On a personal basis.

» Why Am I Feeling So Chill?

I was surprised at myself .. for reacting so calmly to the news. (Plus I got a flu shot today and was feeling a little achy.)

I was wondering "Is this because the Zoloft is so good? Is this why I am feeling so chill when I should probably be freaking out?" 

I could easily justify taking an Ativan right now with this kind of news .. but I dont feel like I need it.

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Writers are Forged in Injustice

This entry originated here » More at Stake than Selling Albums (23 April 2018).

What do you think, Tay .. about what Hemingway said about Dostoevsky?

Ernest Hemingway's 1923 passport photo

.. that » "Dostoevsky was MADE by being sent to Siberia. Writers are forged in injustice, as a sword is forged." [ Green Hills of Africa, p 71, 1935 ] ]

Fyodor Dostoevsky (1821-1881) is one of a handful of thinkers who helped forge the modern sensibility

You obviously have the songwriting thing going on. Even people who hate your guts have to admit as much. Naz knows what I am talking about.

Taylor on the cover of the August issue of Harper's Bazaar 2018

This makes Kanye's snatch of your mic even more iconic .. in a symbolic sort of way. Tho I would probably sound like a nut-case if I went into any detail.

I see that you draw on this sense of injustice when writing some of your songs. This is why I feel that you will be able to relate to this quote by Hemingway.

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This Really Does Feel Like the Next Level

I saw you at Wango Tango yesterday. That is right up the road here in Los Angeles. No wonder you were feeling so close.

That was an impressive show. Even with the weird video overlays during Side to Side .. I was still impressed. And I am not the only one.

Ariana singing Into You at Wango Tango Los Angeles June 2, 2018

I chose this particular image of you here with this dancer because it reminds me of how secret lovers can feel each other's gravity ..

.. as they play with, and explore their attraction for one another. Regardless of what Einstein might say on the subject.

Sleeveless shirt that says Einstein said that gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love

This thing that you are doing here with this dancer .. this reminds me of pair annihilation. And I am not even going to mention how good you look either. Why labor the obvious? ]

» Hard to Keep Secret

Afterwards I thought of a lot of things. But one of these things was » "Wow .. this really does feel like the next level."

It wasnt long before I thought, "This is going to be hard to keep secret."

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Nothing But Respect

» When Writers Elicit My Deepest Writer's-Respect

Speaking of writers .. I want to mention this piece by Leslie Jamison titled » Does Recovery Kill Great Writing? (13 March 2018).

Does Recovery Kill Great Writing? asks Leslie Jamison (13 March 2018)

There are many things I could say here about this piece .. but notice that she hails from the Iowa Writers' Workshop.

I have written about the legendary 'workshop' for writers there in Iowa.

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Cooking with Plutonium - Page One

[ This entry continues from here » A Crisis Without Equal on Earth Over the Revaluation of All Values (09 Feb 2018). ]

» JLaw to Educate Students about the Bullshit of Political Corruption

Speaking of watershed moments in the new age .. Jennifer Lawrence is going to take off a year from acting and go talk to students around the country ..

Jennifer Lawrence to educate students about the bullshit of political corruption

.. educating them about the bullshit that is currently going on in 'our' government. The bullshit of political corruption.

I am beyond impressed. I can feel myself trying to gauge the size of her huevos rancheros.

When I first heard this story (from 60 Minutes, 25 Feb 2018) the voice in my my head said, "Now we're cooking with plutonium."

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