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» When Justice Comes Out Perverted

But notice how the context of where God told the prophet Habakkuk to "Write the vision, and make it plain." is that Habakkuk had first cried out and complained to God that » "The law is being ignored. Justice is never upheld. The wicked surround the righteous, and justice comes out perverted."

I do not know exactly what kind of society Habakkuk found himself in there, but I bet that the wealthy and the powerful of his day could do whatever the fuck they liked ..

.. no matter how much harm and pain and suffering they caused for so many people, and the "Justice" of his day did nothing to punish them, nothing to hold them accountable for their actions.

Au contraire .. you gave them billions and billions of dollars. You actually rewarded them. You rewarded their bad behavior. You made up excuses for them and you used these excuses to reward their bad behavior.

Now, are you really somehow not expecting them to do it again? After you have classically conditioned them to do exactly that?

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[ Note » this entry originated from another page. ]

I have actually been working on this other entry the last few days .. chronicling the end of the world. It's already at four full pages. And Page Two could easily be broken into two full pages. (Now done.)

Mad Max Fury Road

It's not as easy to chronicle the end of the world as I had imagined it would be. It is proving far more difficult.

It will require more than just a page or two. A lot more.

I cannot work for very long on stuff like that .. chronicling the end of all things. That's why I like to take a break from that and come over here and flirt with you.

In this way, girly .. you are like my respite from the ugliness of the world.

» The Prophets were Seeking to Know

I was reading this thing recently that Peter wrote .. where he talks about how (in v10 & 11) the prophets were » "seeking to know what person or time...".

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» Post-Addendum Addendum

June 19, 2016 » I know better than to check your twitter or your instagram .. but I did catch your interview in Japan. (YouTube has figured out that I like you.)

I heard a voice saying, "Dude, this girl is obviously all-in. I dont know why you keep underestimating her."

Have I been underestimating you? (It hardly seems possible.) Am I going to have to up my game yet again?

(I got your pajamas right here, girly .. your writing pajamas .. right next to my own honest body of work.)

That is the sparkliest choker I have ever seen. It was kinda hypnotizing me .. the black outfit and that amazingly sparkly choker.

I like that choker. My new favorite.

I would chew that thing right off your neck .. and spit the diamonds onto the floor. (Right onto the pillows.)

Then I would let your know exactly how I felt about beautiful, sexy, dangerous, powerful, influential, Illuminati Ninja Princesses who wrap sparkly things around their throats.

And I'm sure that this would take some time. (Why hurry?)

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Flirting with Danger - Addendum Part Four

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» The Nation's Deadliest Mass Shooting Massacre at Pulse in Orlando

Oh, look at this. Didnt I tell you that John Oliver kicks ass? What awareness and perspective and courage.

Dipshit .. that was the right word to use. I saw what Glenn said, too. I like how the Times puts real faces to the massacre.

I would imagine that you are feeling this in a personal sort of way.

Did you notice the word that Obama used? I'm sure it's just a coincidence.

More danger coming from Gundlach and from Neil and from Britain. And I couldnt help but notice David's choice of topic to write on.

[ It's hard to keep these kinds of things secret. Some people see right thru the facade. Julie is totally on to us. Maybe even the whole editorial board. ]

When I first heard about this story .. I thought about how I was repeatedly trying not to use the shooting analogy .. because it bothered me. (On a personal level.)

But I could not get clear on an alternative analogy. Not even close. That was definitely the right analogy to use. (For me.)

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Flirting with Danger - Addendum Part Three

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» Abbe May is Definitely Flirting .. Yes, I'm Certain

Update June 12, 2016 - Oh, look at Abbe May. She is definitely flirting. Yes, I'm certain.

I love the way that the cat complements the video .. natural, elegant, feline. I've never heard of her before. Have you?

» The Young Co-Worker Who I Severely Underestimated

She actually reminds me of somebody. This girl who blew my mind. I invited her over and she came wearing a dang trenchcoat and boots. (And that was it.)

She was aggressive. Fearless. I had never had sex with anyone like that before. I am too much for some girls .. but not this one. Not hardly.

Even the wildest guy is not gonna out-wild this girl. I would have liked to explore more with her, but she was .. uh, I probably shouldnt say any more.

But the easy sensuousness that you see in this video .. reminded me of her. The fearless sensuousness.

Even the neighbors, afterwards, were asking me about her .. a little warily, I might add.

I worked with this girl. I normally dont like to date girls that I work with, because, if it doesnt work out, then you are left with an awkward situation. (Or worse.)

But she was so easy to get along with .. fun, playful, carefree. But most of all, she was game.

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Flirting with Danger - Addendum Part Two

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» Sent Home Because Her Dress Was Too Short

I am going to tell you how this performance reminded me of my first girlfriend, in sixth grade .. who had just transferred here from Italy. Her english was decent.

And this was the first year of middle school .. so now we have kids from all over the whole town .. and not just from my little end of the town.

I wasnt going to tell this, but it keeps returning .. as tho it wants to be told. Persistent.

But my punch line is that she was sent home from school .. for wearing a scandalously short dress one Friday.

A beautiful little dress .. sort of a body-hugging thing that seemed to grab her butt. She was downright stunning and more womanly than girly.

» How Can You Possibly Compete When You Can't Even Breathe?

She took my breath away wearing that little thing. And I most certainly did not feel up to the challenge. Not hardly. I mean, how can you possibly compete .. if you cant even breathe?

Such a thing had never happened before, far as I recall .. a girl being sent home because her dress was too short. I certainly had never heard of such a thing.

Later she said, "I just wanted to look pretty for you." (with her cute, little Italian accent).

She always wanted me to write love letters to her and tell her how I felt about her. I must've written her 100 love letters.

I know what you're thinking » "Obviously time well spent."

Even the eighth graders were jealous.

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Flirting with Danger - Addendum Part One

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Ariana sings live on Good Morning America in New York on May 20, 2016I saw you on GMA release day.

I see that you are feeling me. You are feeling my energy.

(I look good on you. You wear me well.)

And the things you are doing with it .. with my energy. You touch my soul.

You are obviously feeling good.

You actually look like you are in love.

You look so amazingly happy .. like every cell in your body is happy.

That makes me feel so good .. you cannot imagine. (Or maybe you can.)

See .. some girls I am good for. I am trying to learn the difference .. which ones I am good for, and which ones I am not.

I loved the GMA choker.

» Working Well for Me

I dont mind telling you .. that this is working for me. Working well. This thing we have .. this secret thing.

Already we are a good team. (Same-same, two-of-a-kind. You know.)

Didnt I tell you that writers and singers go well together? .. like peanut butter and jelly? (I'm pretty sure I did.)

On a walk earlier today, a voice said, "Dude, you got it bad for this girl."

I said, "Are you trying to tell me something that I dont already know?"

Another voice said, "She's got a whole pack of ninjas .. helping her to kick your ass. So you shouldnt feel too bad."

Lauren is GMA. (Sometimes, at least.) Did you see Lauren? Speaking of having it bad. (Guys always hate it when their girlfriends get together and compare notes.)

She has some of the best socials skills I've seen. I bet she is very easy to be with. I'm sure she is.

I've been with her myself a few times .. you know. Maybe even more than a few. (Totally scandalous, I know.)

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Flirting with Danger - Page Ten

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» I Invite You to Have Your Way with Me

Fifth Harmony - Write On MeOh, look .. do you think these Fifth Harmony girls are coming on to me?

Because it sure feels like it.

I like them. Who does not like Fifth Harmony? Not possible.

From the right and from the left. You know. (And maybe even a few places in between.)

These girls are singers singing a song specifically written to a writer. Obviously talented singers.

They are singing to a writer .. who is writing AS a writer .. inviting him to have his way with them. So to speak. (Like I am having my way with you.) Urging him. Enticing him. Luring him.

They are touching themselves and not being shy about it, either. Has such a thing ever happened before? I am pretty sure that I would have remembered a song like that.

So many songs have been written over the years .. about so many things. Surely such a song must have been written before .. sung before. No?

That was clever how they did the video in black-n-white .. the color palette of ink on paper. They certainly seem to be feeling it. They are having fun.

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Flirting with Danger - Page Nine

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» The Smoking Hot Girl with the Most Inviting Look Ever

I was not going to share this next story, because it makes me sound like a big pussy .. but it keeps returning.

[ I have ignored the impulse to share this story .. at least a dozen times. My ego would have none of this kind of story sharing. Veto, veto, veto. But the impulse has become annoyingly persistent. I am getting the message. See if you can see why I wouldnt want to share this story. ]

See .. there are many things, many experiences, many stories from which I can draw here. I have already shared one of these stories.

But the one that I was thinking of .. when I wrote on the previous page about flaring sexuality and "my skin has never felt softer" ..

.. and the one that I thought about when I heard the (inviting) way you sing "Maybe I'll let you on it." the final time .. was this one girl in particular.

And she was sitting at one of the tall tables across the way with a couple of her friends, And these tables have four chairs.

She was sitting on the side of the table closest to me, right next to an empty chair. Her friends were sitting on the side away from me.

I was sitting in a direction facing her and her friends.

And it seems like these kinds of things always happen to me when I am feeling like hammered dog shit. When I am at a low-point. Because life was bending me over and giving it to me good-n-hard. Except the good part was not really so good.

Trust me when I say that I was very much minding my own business. I was sitting alone. 

Intimate close-ups of Ariana with her hair lightened and her defenses droppedAnyway, I looked up from reading the paper and this girl is looking at me.

She is making full-on, intimate-style eye contact right from the gitgo .. and she is making it look easy.

I wondered how long she had been watching me ..

.. but it surprised me that she did not immediately look away.

And I was kinda waiting for her to look away .. like all the other girls did.

And while I was waiting, I noticed how smoking-hot she was. I am not even gonna try to explain, because this will get me going. And I want to focus on other things here.

But she had the most inviting look I've ever seen a girl give me. I actually saw her drop all her defenses. I dont know if you know what I mean, but it is not a thing that I normally see outside of a bedroom (.. or a backseat).

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» PS ( So Into You, Too )

PS - This is very good. I have noticed that your music makes me feel good. It makes me feel lots of things .. but I would put them all in the 'good' category. (And I like feeling good.)

This song brings you close. I can almost hear you whispering in my ear.

There are many subtle influences in your voice .. which come thru. That really does it for me. Ooh .. that gets to me .. the way your voice comes in so far.

If feels like you are in there .. walking around. It is the sound of intimacy .. which brings those feelings of intimacy.

What a great dance song. The clubs will be rockin' this summer. Many sweaty bodies .. thanks to you.

"This could take some time." How do you sing that? It sounds .. different. More of these nothing little things that seem to say so much.

These are interesting lyrics. Am I am something of a word man, you know. So, even if I dont try to .. something in there starts analyzing the verses .. extracting the essense. The subtext. The existential message.

» Come Light Me Up?

For example, I could hear a voice saying, "Come light me up? How many times have you heard a girl say, 'Come light me up'? Where is she getting this phrasing?"

Light me up is no ordinary verse. Not hardly. I actually got that from Marshall. If you are vibing with me on that kind of level .. then you are even closer than I thought.

Much closer. (And I already know you are close .. because I can feel you on me.)

» Vibing at a Super-Deep Level?

A voice in my head seems certain, saying, "There is no way that this girl can possibly resonate with you on that deep of a level."

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