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Feeling the Erotic Effects of Intuited Intention

This page originated here, in an entry titled » Flirting with the Queen of Psycho-Erotic Mind-Fuckery (11 Aug 2019).

» When it Feels Like I Can Feel Their Intention Directed Directly at Me

This thing here .. where it feels like they are directing their intention directly at me .. this is kind of a trippy thing.

Because it suggests or implies that my secret thing is being discovered .. which would suggests that it can't be long now.

I was talking about this back on New Years day in an entry titled » When it Feels Like Super-Hotties are Talking Directly to Me (1 Jan 2019).

When I listened to Shibby talk about the idea of making a baby .. I did indeed feel like she was talking directly to me. (I was not trying to feel this way.)

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I Bet You are a Good Kisser

This page originated here .. in an entry titled » Your Foot Must be Starting to Get Very Sore (21 Aug 2018).

» What Does It Feel Like to be a Natural Woman?

You are amazing. No wonder your foot is so sore.

Ariana sings Natural Woman with the Roots (16 Aug 2018)

Look at your upper lip here. This is why I captured this image of you and cropped it down so close .. to focus on your upper lip.

» I Bet that You are a Good Kisser

You have nice lips, by the way. I bet that you are a good kisser.

Good kissers in The River by Delta Goodrem

I am pretty sure of it. I feel confident about my intuition. But there is really only one way to know for certain.

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It probably means nothing to anybody but me .. but the time right now here on the Left coast is » 11:58 PM, and this page is live.

I am not really sure exactly what I will be writing here in this entry .. but, with such a title, I can't wait to see where this thing goes.

There is not much that you cannot fit into the space that lies within the entire range of moral experience .. from the satanic to the divine.

(I bet that Ariana knows what I am talking about.)

» Connection is Why We're Here

There is no telling where this thing will end up .. but I know where I want to start » with this remarkable 20-min TED talk (Houston) by Brené Brown (3 Jan 2011) that I recently stumbled across.

Brené Brown| The Power of Vulnerability, TEDx Houston | Connection is why we're here (3 Jan 2011)

She says that » "Connection is why we're here."

Notice that Brené is wearing brown .. a brown shirt.

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This page continues from nowhere. It begins a new thread. This could be dangerous.

» Must Drop the Initial HTML Set-Up for this Page by Midnight Tonight

For some reason that I am not entirely sure about .. I feel compelled to post this particular page on this very day .. with this title.

[ Right now the time is 11:44 PM, and this page is live. That is cutting it a little close.]

Such mandatory things frequently (not always) seem to come when you are least prepared .. and you simply have to suck it up and throw it down.

» The Sneaky Way that Life Seems to Bring Its Bigger Challenges When You Feel Least Prepared to Respond

I have noticed that what I call 'nadir writing,' where you are giving external voice to internal voice .. when you really dont feel like it, physically speaking ..

This type of writing forces you to dig deeper .. to someplace beyond you own human abilities and talents and skills and strengths. Or, at least this is the way it feels.

I guess my point here is to say that, although the timing of such things might seem to suck .. if you can find a way to suck-it-up and throw-it-down .. you can get some really cool stuff .. that you can get no other way.

Plus it feeds your sense of artistic self-confidence when you are able to strike while the iron is hot, so to speak, and capture lightning in a bottle.

When you can execute a complex skill-set on demand in short order .. and even when you might not feel like it .. but you are able to do it anyway .. this is a powerful thing.

This is a powerful person. This is someone who can kick ass and take names. This a powerful person kicking ass and taking names and making it look easy .. even though it is far from easy. Very far. (Katy Perry and Cardi B know what I am taking about.)

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Filling it Up and Sending it Back to Ariya

» Sender was a Woman

Hi Ariya.

I saw your performance in St. Petersburg on 31 March 2019. (Video posted two days ago on 17 April.)

Ariya holding an empty box in St Petersburg that she is sending to me (31 March 2019)

It very much spoke to me .. in a personal and intimate sort-of-way .. which is why I feel compelled to respond.

I found your performance both enchanting and irresistibly seductive .. for a number of reasons. A large number.

» Currently in the Process of Filling Your Box

I just want you to know that I have received your empty box, and that I am currently in the process of filling it up .. as you instructed.

When I finish filling it, I will send it back to you.

Would you like to know what kinds of treats I will be putting in your box? (I bet you would.)

Many delightful and wonderful things .. I can assure you. Maybe even some things that you have never seen before.

» I Feel Like a New Woman .. How Do You Do That?

A number of women have told me things like, "I have never felt anything like that before. How do you do that? I feel like a new woman." 

See if you dont feel a few of these things by the time I am done filling your box .. and when you have had an opportunity to examine the little treats that I made just for you.

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I should probably note that my email accounts have been hacked .. for some time now.

I have detailed the circumstances behind this hack on my » Contacts page.

So if you have received an email from me in the last several months, then it is probably bogus.

From some hacker pretending to be me. Or if you sent me an email, it mayve been deleted.

I take the approach that anytime I am online the whole world is watching everything I do.

I dont know why hackers are so interested in my site .. seeing that there are so many more lucrative targets out there. (I dont $ell anything.)

If you happen to know this hacker, then tell Fucknuts that it is a stupid idea to hack people who have no money (since last July).

They are just wasting their time trying to extract money from me. (I have not had a thousand dollars in a long time.)

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I hesitate to mention this, because it sounds crazy at times .. even to me. But sometimes I will see things that make me feel like super-hotties are talking directly to me.

I have been thinking about this lately .. because it feels like Mia is talking directly to me.

A Deeper Letting Go with Mistress Mia (March, 2018)

(That's a good trick, Mia.)

» That's What Crazy People Think

Sometimes the voice in my head will say, "Dude, you know that's what crazy people think, right? .. that super-hottie singers and super-sexy dancers and other such desirable creatures are directing their art and their craft directly at them. Oh look .. here come the nice men with a pretty, white jacket for you. The pretty, white, I-Love-Me jacket .. just for you. Such a handsome, stylish jacket. And so nice-n-warm, too. I bet it will fit you perfectly. Why dont you go ahead and try it on .. and see how it fits. These masculine buckles and thick straps are going to make you look so handsome .. that those super-hotties who have been talking to you will not able to resist you. I wish that somebody would bring me one of these nice jackets to wear someday."

Taylor's right eye in ...Ready For It

I am currently taking a number of brain-chemistry-altering psycho-active drugs .. so I realize that there may be some slippage here-n-there from time-to-time.

I can feel that things are a little loosen upstairs .. but I am okay with it. I deal with it.

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I have Never Been Here Before

When I first heard that you were coming out next with a video for breathin' (released Wed, 7 Nov 2018) I wondered what kind of concept you would come up with.

"What's she gonna bring?" I wondered. "What can she bring with a song like this?" [ The scope seemed rather narrow .. the possibilities limited. Silly me. ]

Some days had passed and I forgot all about the video .. until I saw the thumbnail for it .. right there in front of me.

» The Most Excited Sense of Anticipation I have Ever Felt

This is definitely the most excited I have felt. By far .. and I am always excited to see your new stuff. But this was special.

The sense of anticipation with this particular video .. and the surrounding curiosity and the hint of a promise of worlds that I didnt even know existed .. was too much for me.

As if on its own, my hand shot out and hovered directly over the trackpad .. less than an inch away.

I was starting to click when I better saw the details of the image of you on the thumbnail.

Ariana breathin video thumbnail (7 Nov 2018)

That's when I froze. (I am cautious with girls like you.)

Even without clicking the link, the voice in my head said, "Oh, I see where she is going with this."

I see how you are, girly. I see how you work. You are clever. This I will freely admit.

You never cease to impress me and to challenge me. You sometimes do things to me that I cannot even put into words. (But that doesnt stop me from trying.)

So I didnt click on it. My sense of restraint has been impressing girls for years.

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Starving Writer SOS - Page Five

This entry continues from here » Page Four (1 Nov 2018).

» Send a Moving Truck with a Couple of Strong Dudes

Maybe you could send a moving truck here .. a few days before New Years .. along with a couple of muscular dudes to load my shit. I have very little stuff.

Everything I have could easily fit into the smallest U-haul truck. And then they could take me to my new place.

I have no bed. No furniture. Just clothes and books and a laptop. A couple of bikes. It makes moving easy. Unencumbered.

Heck, I probably really only need one strong dude.

My mom used to say, "The things you own end up owning you."

You can spend a good chunk of your life just tending to all your stuff .. and not writing or creating, or tending to the things that are really important in life.

I got rid of most of my crap when I moved here from Orange county. (Here in northern San Diego county. It takes an hour to get to the OC. Probably 75 mins all the way to Laguna.)

So right about now is when I can use that bed .. the one with my name on it. (You and Nicki must have ESP.)

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Starving Writer SOS - Page Four

This entry continues from here » Page Three (1 Nov 2018).

» Writing and Intimacy both Represent Formidable Challenges

One of the reasons why, Ariana, I am drawn to, and pursue, intimacy .. is for the same reason that I am drawn to and pursue writing.

Both can be tricky and challenging to negotiate .. both come with incubation periods that deter most explorers .. and both come with pay-offs that you can get no other way. (If you really must know.)

I wonder what Kierkegaard thinks about that.

Intimacy is probably the domain in which you learn the most about yourself. Perhaps this is because this is where you speak most openly and honestly and frankly.

» Nothing More Difficult than Escaping Self-Deception

On the subject of taking on challenging endeavors .. Wittgenstein says that nothing is more difficult than escaping self-delusion.

I would have to agree with him there. It might not even be humanly possible .. but I can guarantee you that the journey is not boring. Talk about things that you did not even know existed.

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