Where is This Bed?

Where is this bed? You know the one I'm talking about .. the one with my name on it.

This song is so stuck in my head and talking to me .. saying things that some might consider nasty.

The idea of a powerful, sexy woman having a bed with my name on it .. this speaks to me. I can't stop it from speaking to me.

» More than Just a Flirty Song

Now this doesnt necessarily mean that I will cave to the invitation .. but merely dealing with the idea .. this activates in me things that are both exhilarating and challenging.

Who can resist such a thing? Show me the man.

Before you know it .. my imagination has picked up on this thing is is already running with it. Though I dare not say where these places lie.

There are all kinds of socio-erotic things happening here. It's more than just a flirty, seductive song.

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» You So Do It For Me

I was trying not to use any of the images from this teaser. You see how that worked out for me.

Ariana holding her ponytail poolside in Bed (19 June 2018)

Girly, you so do it for me. The geek in me is trying to figure it out .. why you so do it for me. (I am not trying to feel this way.)

I mean, you are not even singing in this shot.

When I was working with this image of you here .. trying to stay focused on the job at hand .. and not let my imagination run away with me ..

.. I could hear the voice in my head saying, "Dude, did you notice how she is holding her hair away from her neck? Away from her throat. She knows that shit gets your attention. She is daring the vampire in you. She does not look scared to me." 

It puts a man at something of a disadvantage when a super-hottie has the combination to his safe. To his soul.

Ariana looking fine poolside in Bed (19 June 2018)

Are you doing this on purpose? I dont even want to put into words what you are doing here.

I like everything about you. This is how you know that you are no-shit in love. I am so glad that we will always be in love forever.

These were challenging images to work with.

» Bed Choreography

Have you seen this choreo for this song? (2 July 2018)

Bed Choreo by Brinn Nicole (2 July 2018)

When I see these girls dancing in heels like this .. it always impresses me .. because I think, "I dont think I could walk across the room wearing those heels. How do they do it?"

I am seeing parallel lines in this image. Something is obviously speaking to me.

They are interpreting this song in the medium of dance.

You know what they say about dancers » they know how to move.

The camera-work is also important on these choreo videos, no?

» Brinn Nicole's Impressive Choreography

Speaking of choreo by Brinn Nicole .. here she is letting it rip to Gaga's Teeth.

Brinn Nicole choreo of Lady Gaga's Teeth (21 Oct 2018)

I was impressed by her choreo here (21 Oct 2018). She begins by croutching into a little ball .. before stretching out on the floor.

She attacks this choreo. She is sexy and is obviously very comfortable expressing her sexuality.

She is a lot of woman. A guy will need to be in excellent shape in order to handle a woman like this.

He will need to do more than just 10 or 15 push-ups. A lot more.

You can actually feel her energy. It comes through loud-n-clear. I have been impressed with other choreos that she has done.

Now, when I see a choreo with her name on it, I check it out .. because I know that it will be good.

He right arm has an entire sleeve of tattoos, while her other arm barely has any. (Low entropy is high energy.)

Something about that makes me curious about her.

» A Bed with My Name On It in Laguna

Speaking of a bed with my name on it .. remind me to tell you the story about the doctor-chick (.. who I met through the lawyer-chick).

She is the girl who I dated right before I met my son's future mom. All three of these girls were based there in Laguna.

That's a good story .. the story about the doctor-chick. A downstairs type-of-story.

After showing me around the upstairs, which is the main floor in this house, and which is where you enter this two-story home ..

.. and after telling me about some of the problems that she was having with her cool kitchen floor ..

» She Gestured Forward

.. she gestured forward and said, "Let me show you the downstairs."

Downstairs was smaller than the upstairs. More plain. There was nothing much down there besides that bedroom with a bed in it. Maybe some storage space. The bedroom was not too big, but big enough.

"Big enough for what?" you ask? I will leave that up to your imagination.

I was impressed when she showed me the shower down there .. which was the biggest walk-in shower that I had ever seen in a private home.

It was completely tiled with no access door. You just walked right in.

You can so imagine yourself returning from a day at the beach .. which was only two blocks away. There in south Laguna.

Heck, I could almost see the sand swirling down the drain.

» You Look Like You Could Slide In There Very Nicely

After she was done showing me around her home, and as we were walking out of the downstairs bedroom, she glanced back at me, and then down to the bed momentarily. Then she said, "You look like you could slide in there very nicely."

She held that eye-contact for a slight delay, and then turned away as she led me back up the stairs .. leaving me to think about what she had just said.

These kinds of things cause you to think about a million different things at once .. and she had not even read any of my writing yet.

As she started up the stairs, I glanced back at the downstairs doorway to the outside .. which she obviously didnt use. I couldnt help but imagine myself going in and out of it.

And I thought, "This is pretty tempting. This would be a sweet deal. Very sweet, indeed." 

I should probably mention that we had not been dating for very long .. when she hit me with this thing.

I remember thinking, "Wow .. this girl moves fast."

Things would have been very different for me .. if I pursued that tempting deal .. no?

» Can You See Why this Song Reminds Me of this Story?

Can you see how this song made me think of this story? I am sure that you can.

Writers do not look at the world and things in general the way that most people do. Part of the problem is that people project their own values and desires onto you. They assume that you want and value what they want and value .. even when you dont.

This is why the writer's decision-making process can appear confusing or even insane to some people. It is an arcane process that I am not even sure that I could explain to you. Because it doesnt even make sense to me, sometimes.

And here I could get off on the mother of all tangents .. but my point here is to say that I could feel these things coming into play.

See .. nine out of ten guys are going to jump at a deal like this. And who would blame them?

» The Socioeconomic Dynamics Behind an Established Doctor with a Starving Writer

See .. this girl is a doctor, an established doctor. She has her own practice. She has her own home .. there in Laguna. Two blocks from the beach. Maybe three.

Laguna has the best beaches. Every beach has its own special flavor. Its own special charms. You need to live there for a few years .. before you can really get a sense for all the different flavors.

Meanwhile, I have nothing but a little money in the bank and my wits. It definitely made for an interesting male-female power dynamic.

This here is the kind of thing that forces a man to develop skills and insights that arent necessary when you have abundant financial resources at your disposal.

This wasnt difficult for me to see.

» A Couple of Blocks from Teri & Alan

I already knew some friends who lived right there in her neighborhood. Teri and Alan lived a few blocks away.

They are both great people. Good energy. Fun. They made you feel good to hang out with them.

It was actually Teri's place, but Alan was there a lot. Alan actually lived at an industrial park place were he build race cars. He was a real, no-shit race car mechanic.

He had to be secretive about it .. because he wasnt really supposed to be living there. I liked him a lot. I could be myself with him.

They through a party every year during the summer .. that attracted the most interesting people from around Laguna.

The discussions that you end up having at these parties .. mind-expanding shit. Professional people.

» Close as You Can Get

Their place was right at the beach. There were no other homes between their places and the beach.

They had a nice, big deck that made for a great place to have a party with plenty of people. (The gas grille was out on the deck.)

The bedroom was upstairs. They had a big, hi-def flat screen up there.

The whole top floor was one big bedroom, and it featured the slanty, sloping ceilings that are common among beachfront properties.

They even had one of those mini-portals that pass through the slanty ceiling and allow access outside onto a little, mini veranda .. barely big enough for six or eight people.

Ed Sheeran knows what I am talking about.

Sometimes Alan would say, "Come on," and we would go upstairs, and go out on that mini-veranda and smoke a joint. Sometimes there would be 4 or 5 people out there .. with people coming and going.

He always had great weed. I would take one hit .. maybe two. I am kind of a lightweight. It is nice smoking a joint with the smell of salt air .. and hearing the sound of the waves crashing on the beach.

Living so close to the beach presents a problem that corrodes your electric connections over time, and anything else that is metal.

» A Smart, Articulate, Well-Educated and Highly-Motivated Yoga-Chick

I may return to share a little about the doctor-chick. I liked her. She was smart and obviously very motivated. She took me to some very nice things. 

She was a yoga-chick, too.

Yoga chick doing yoga on the boardwalk at the beach

She actually took classes with my son's mom. (All the girls told me how much they enjoyed her traditional-style classes.)

There are some stories along these lines, but it wouldnt be right for me to share them. Nothing outrageous, but I dont feel at liberty to elaborate.

» Developing a Sense of Self-Worth that is Not Based on Finances

A man needs to have plenty of self confidence and be secure in who he is, and his in sense of self and his self of self-worth .. in order to make something like this work. It challenged even me.

This is obviously because of the culture in which we live .. the money-worshiping culture.

I was telling Jude about my thoughts when I heard her sing the lines » "'Cause if you had no money we will be alright. And if you had no money you would still be mine."

I thought "I heard that shit before."

» The Heidelberg Would Make a Great Writer's Home Coffee Shop

The most tempting thing, as a writer, was the cool cafe and bistro just a block or two from her place. I had already been there many times and loved it.

Outdoor patio at the Heidelberg Cafe & Bistro on PCH in south Laguna Beach

Weekends there were always mobbed, particularly during the summer months .. but mid-week wasnt bad.

I liked their tiled floor on the outdoor patio. It can get a little noisy on PCH, and sometimes you might even smell diesel fumes .. but it is still a great location.

Heidelberg Cafe & Bistro on PCH in south Laguna Beach

They have great coffee and baristas who make great coffee drinks there.

» First Thing You Learn After Moving to Laguna

The first thing that you learn after moving to Laguna is how to navigate the town during periods when traffic swells with tourists. You learn how to navigate the backstreets. 

The worse the traffic, the further back you must go.

» Duties & Responsibilities Associated with Sliding Into Beds in Laguna

See .. these kinds of things .. where I slide ever so nicely into beds with my name on them in Laguna .. both north and south Laguna .. I happen to know a little something about such things.

You do not just "slide into" such beds .. no, ma'am. It aint that easy. It aint as easy as it sounds, and it certainly isnt as easy as I make it look. Because there are duties and responsibilities associated with sliding into such beds.

Ask me how I know. (Dakota knows what I am talking about.)

These professional girls have high standards. They want only the best and they expect nothing less. You will need to bring your A-game and show them who is boss.

» That's What They All Say

When the girl said, "I have never felt anything like that before," .. I did not say, "That's what they all say," .. but you can bet your ass I was thinking it.

And I have gotten the impression, more than once, that girls didnt really want me, per se. Rather they merely wanted my DNA, my chromosomes .. my genetic code. For obvious reasons.

I could tag along if I wanted .. but it wasnt really necessary.

Zoe knows what I am talking about when she writes that her grandmother » "wanted more kids, so she very briefly married a man she had met at the neighborhood plant store in order to get his sperm to have a fifth child."

She makes my point .. in a piece titled » A Guide to Dating Women Raised in a Matriarchy. It is definitely an interesting piece.

» With Your Name On It

You know .. I couldnt help but notice the phrasing "with your name on it". Because I used this very same phrasing in a section labeled Ulterior Motives, which is part of an entry titled I Can't Quit You Either (30 April 2017).

Where I wrote:

Then I could call you up .. and say, "What's shaking, girly? I have this song playing in my head and it has your name on it."

I somehow thought that I wrote that phrase in the section where I try to coax Ariana up to the mountains for the holidays for a few days of fun-n-whatnot. You know .. poetry, brandy, a fireplace, dogs. [ Which is actually part of the Dylan Nobel page. ]

I had to query a search engine. "Oh, so that's where I wrote that." That was an interesting page. Sometimes I surprise myself. That page was one such time.

I sometimes feel like I am writing beyond myself, or ahead of myself, or better than I can write. I know it sounds crazy.

What do you do .. when you do things that you did not even know you could do? What do you do with this?

I bet that these BlackPink girls know exactly what I am talking about. "Wait til' I do what I do and hit you with that ddu-du ddu-du du."

That is impressive choreo and styling. The term blackpink made me think of Jade.

They just released this video today .. the same day that I am posting this entry.  I try to draw on cultural references in my writing. Current cultural references.

I feel that this lends a touch of the zeitgeist to my writing.

At the bottom of that page, I include the image of you that started it all. When I first saw that photo, I remember thinking, "Oh, this is exactly what I am looking for."

The rest is history.

» The Erotic Interplay

But also notice that it (my writing) is a response to that song. (Quit.) This is where I am getting my conceptualization of this thing as a strand of DNA .. a long strand. Which is still continuing.

It is this interplay .. something in this interplay .. of responses .. that I find so fascinating.

» Gravity and Cohesion for You

I also noticed that I used this phrase (with your name on it) way back on Page Seven (19 March 2016) .. in a section labeled » Tolstoy's Hidden Rabbit Hole .. where I write »

I have some twenty-first century internal cohesion for you, Ariana. It has your name on it. Tho it is harder to conceal than I thought it would be. Much harder.

Besides the obvious flirtiness here, I am playing with the word conceal .. which plays off the word hidden in the section title .. because I am talking about Tolstoy's Hdden Architecture in Anna Karenina.

I am showing you that I feel Tolstoy here .. on a level deeper than superficial .. because I play with some of these things myself.

I am doing this because I am trying to impress you.

» Shifting to an Outside-In Perspective Over Time

Sometimes I will return to an older page .. in order to retrieve a link that plays off of something that I am currently writing.

And sometimes I will read some of the surrounding text there. Going back to March of 2016 .. this is more than two years ago.

When I read something that I have written two years ago, this feels like I am looking at the writing from the outside in, instead of from the inside out.

It is hard to describe, and I admit that it sounds a little crazy .. but I think that you feel me here.

I see things differently when I look at the writing from the outside in. And this is all that I should probably say on the matter right now.

» The Last Entry Before Manchester

I just went back and looked .. and this was a the last entry (30 April 2017) before Manchester (23 May 2017).

[ Nobody is going to say that you didnt rise to the occasion .. under the worst kind of circumstances. With help from your friends, of course. Girly, you have the coolest friends. ]

I remember seeing the footage from the train .. that was an an interesting feeling.

And I remembered back to when I first stepped aboard. I didnt know where I was headed .. but I knew that I wouldnt be the same person .. when I got to the other end of wherever it was that this thing was going.

It was a very trippy feeling. I wouldnt say haunting .. but heading in that general direction.

You deal with self-doubt at these places. At these critical junctures. Moments of doubt .. who does not know exactly what I am talking about? Who has not experienced the challenge of a moment-of-doubt?

"Are my cojones grande enough?" (Guess we'll find out.)

Sometimes you just got to say, "Fuck it .. let's do this thing." .. even if maybe you might not really feel up to it at the moment.

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